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| I am still amazed. She dumps an awesome guy to apparently get engaged and married to some guy she has talked to only online since high school, and moves to the East Coast. Bon Voyage Kayla. Enjoy your lonely life on the East Coast. On a more interesting note... got the apartment with Ryan. It's fun. We have our fishies. Got a new one. Not going to BlizzCon because saving money is more important at the moment. Alan got back with Jamie. Advised him I did not find it a wise choice, and that is the only time I will say it. I wish him the best. Possibly gonna see him if he and jamie come out. We'll see. | | |
| Amazing. It never fails to amaze me how people change. For so many years, you think you have someone down.Then Boom. Someone completely different. Apparently, she's going to gain her wish to be with the East Coast guy after so many, many years... By moving there. Hope she knows what the hell she is doing, otherwise she will find herself alone and without anyone should things turn sour. I hope for her sake that it works out fine, though knowing her dating history, it seems more likely to not work out than it will. I still hold my grudge against her, but I wish her luck. So, farewell. Glad our friendship isn't worth a damn to you anymore. I hoped we could salvage it someday, but I guess not. Enjoy the East Coast. Enjoy the cold. Enjoy being alone. Enjoy being away from your family. Enjoy being away from your friends. Chris seems to like it, so no doubt you will too. At least WE got a great friend out of this whole fucked up situation. Thank God we got Mike rather than you. At least we know he's a genuinely good person. | | |
| You know, looking back on most everything from the last three years or so is mind boggling. Just to see how radically people can and will change from High School(HS) to the present. I mean, there were the ones who were always quiet, never thought they'd be a hardy partier, and look at them now. Then there were the prissy ones, who oddly enough have not changed, though they seem to find your company less than desirable. Then the ones you thought would stick through to the end with you who whined up stabbing you in the back. Of course you can't forget the loud, crazy ones or the extremely manipulative ones. I have come to know and embrace all of these people, yet they seem to not embrace me. So, with no ado whatsoever, I am discarded like an unwanted puppy. Put out in a cardboard box by the dumpster to be hopefully found by others. Of course I was not left completely alone. I was found by one. And one is all that really remains. Not to say I have never recovered from the drop by my "friends," but it seems that I cannot trust many people. The ones I work with whom I have befriended, I will leave in the next few days. I am not happy to lose these people, and will do all in my power to keep. I don't know. I guess the saying that you can't judge a book by it's cover is true. Everyone I thought I had a grip on have changed. Of course I have changed as well, and I am sure my cover is different to others, but it's bothersome. I put so much effort into keeping these people in my life, and just being tossed aside or replaced. It is not appreciated. Especially when one goes to such great lengths to keep them. Even with what little money one would use to keep a friendship, and look how it is returned. With a big back turn and not speaking. I am very interested to see how all these people I thought I knew turn out. Because I'll be damned if I don't put them all in their respective places with what I have in store. | | |
| It's been forever. Like seeing an old friend from years ago. Looking back, it all started with humble beginings. Simple. Not complex. More or less straight forward. Then as time progresses, you see the changes. The things you must decide. Be the decision good or bad. You deal with your choices. Almost three years in the making, I can and have officially submitted my application for my AA degree from Fresno City College. It's bitter-sweet. I know the hardest part is supposed to be over, but I do not feel that way. I feel this has all been too simple and too straight forwars and easy. Everything in my life is supposed to be hard. This was too simple. I feel like something is going to backfire and my dreams of walking at the graduation in the Spring will not happen. Like I over-looked some major step that the councelors never caught. It frightens me. It scares me. It makes me happy. To know I have come this far. But then, as my mom put it, it is the end of something great and the begining of something even greater. I would tend to agree, but so much so fast has me swimming in emotions. So much has happened over such a short period, it confuses me and makes me uneasy. Too many major decisions to make in too short of a time span. But on a seperate note, I have begun reading again. Yet another series. Twilight. For the movie. For the books. For the storylines. The storylines I can somehow relate almost too closely too. It reminds me of my decisions and my life. Except I don't have a Vampire love and a Werewolf best friend. I have a Gamer for my love and an Ex for a best friend. I'm screwed up in the head, but it's ok. Always knew I was a screw ball. | | |
| So I'm watching Scooby Doo. The first movie. I like it more than the 2nd one, though the 2nd one is pretty good. What's going on... Summer school swim class is done. Inventory is coming up. Hours next week are going to suck, but lots of over-time. Soooooo..... It's hot. Blah. It's too hot to blog. | | |
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